Day 586 - Bi-Polar Love

Someday's I am in heaven,
High on love and sweet kisses,
Other days I'm burning in hell,
Down on loneliness and tears.

Someday's I see the light shining though,
We're together again, unified as one,
Other days I see only darkness,
Separated by miles, faith wearing thin.

I tell myself "if it's right, it's right,"
"Fight though this like it's the end of life,"
Other days it just all seems so damn wrong,
Making love wait, until the "right" time comes.

I curse these long days and wasted nights,
Cozying up to misery's silent sounds,
Other days I bow my head and pray,
Forcing happiness to lift me up and away.

I am of the mind which has no fear,
I'll pack it all up tomorrow and move out there,
Other days thinking about it leaves me so scared,
Out and about, wandering new streets of life.

I see your love as my saving grace,
A whisper of hope every day when I wake,
Other days it a newly sharpened tool,
Puncturing my heart, tearing it in two.