Day 118 - The Truth

The truth is,
I never knew what I wanted in love,
A body to hold, lips to kiss, seemed to fill a need.
Just going with the flow and never connecting too deep,
That got me through many a day and night.

The truth is,
When I first laid eyes on you I said, she is the prettiest in the room,
I bet she has a boyfriend and is just as shy as the others.
Then the good news came late one night, neither was really true,
You were competitive with a dry, flirtatious humor; a smart ass like me.

The truth is,
After that night, I set my sights on winning you over,
Not for love or a relationship, just lust and temptation.
I tried to act uninterested, but I know my eyes gave me away,
Always staring, in a way most would find creepy, but not you.

The truth is,
I was very unsure that night, a little nervous perhaps,
But we snuck outside, our lips met and you tasted like nicotine.  
Walking back to Double, I was eager and maybe it showed,
I was ready, but my heart sank when you closed the door.

The truth is,
I was let down, a little disappointed in my game,
I knew I had just one more night to score some points.
That night on the rooftop, I think everyone knew,
We kept disappearing, all over each other, all so new.

The truth is,
When we got back to your room, I was nervous again,
Alone with a pretty Asian girl; a dream of mine.
You held the all the cards, and experience too,
I was blown away in not one way, but two.

The truth is,
I left that next day proud and confident,
I was amazed at the power of my first one night stand.
Are they all that much fun and enjoyable?
Do they all lay and talk and connect after, as if it was nothing new?

The truth is,
I thought of you, of us, over the next few days,
Wondering why I couldn't get you out of my mind.
There was something about you, your smile that was real,
Something I couldn't place, but it couldn't be ignored.

The truth is,
Those next few weeks I was pulled in ever so tight,
Learning so many amazing things about a girl I first wanted just for her beauty.
Skype allowed us to bond emotionally, mentally and put us on the same page,
A page filled with music, laughs, stories, smiles; you understand all that I am.

The truth is,
When I said there were many different types of love, I lied,
You had hooked me in a short period of time, but I was too shy.
Falling in love on a computer, what would people say?
Now I know the "how" doesn't matter, just what feel inside.

The truth is,
You know all of this already,
I have been open and honest with you from the start.
That is who I am and who I will forever be,
I know you feel the same and will give you all to me.

The truth is,
Tears are rolling down my cheek as I write this you,
The memories are great, but my heart is missing a piece.
I miss you so much, but I won't let this distance be the death of me,
Time to harness the power of love and ride off in to the sunset together.