Day 1089 - Picture Frame

I look at my old photos and I just don't care,
They're just long gone memories of how I got to be here.
The smiles, the laughs and the tears I have cried,
Just pieces of "remember when?" leading to full body sighs.
I don't need them taking up space in my mind,
Taking away from the present me I'm trying to find.

Yes, they give me a glimpse of young faces without any lines,
Happiness seemingly flowing from everyone, all of the time.
Laying peacefully, I'm being held in everybody's arms,
Hiding under blankets of love, showcasing my young, boyish charms.
But the answers aren't in this dirty picture frame hanging up on the wall,
It's just there to take me back in time to when I worried about nothing it all.

From little kid to the man here now, I seem to have lost a gear or two,
My mind focuses only on new and useless things I let life push through.
Joyous moments leave me staring blindly and numb for all to see,
I fake smiles, knowing full well that is not who I am or what I want to be.
My body is falling apart, beginning to ache with the slightest of moves,
I lay lazily thinking about how I should go out, find ways to improve!

It's guess it's time to wake up and laugh again with the ones I love so much,
Take the weight of thoughts in my mind and rid myself of the proverbial crutch.
It just takes a moment, I'll center my mind, re-focus on what means the most in time,
I'll channel that in to a positive energy, re-charge for the next steps of my climb.
I'm ready to take the leap, make the move, to be the me I need right now,
Leave the past and the present behind, let my strong mind be the one to show me how.

Day 1079 - A Little Something

You're my favorite vinyl record,
Spinning in my head all day,
My lucky silver penny,
Giving me everything I've ever dreamed,
And like the wind and the rain,
You wash away all my pain,
Letting your love shine up high,
Melting my heart every day. 

Day 1063 - Lucky Guy

I'm not very fly,
Just a lucky guy,
Who's smile caught a pretty girl,
Ended up changing two people's worlds.
I'd say it's all for the good,
And frankly I should,
Because now I can't see me,
Without her, she's the M to my C.
Distance is scary at times,
New friends make jealousy climb,
But we carry a strong faith and trust,
Saying "screw you" to one time lust.
We journey on, texting all day,
Communications on time, responses delayed,
By night's fall, eyes are closing so tight,
No time to catch up before darkness of night.
Weekends are the pride that we have,
Happiness abounds, smiles are glad,

It's time to catch up on good times and bad,
All while forgetting we spent another week so sad.

Day 1005 - Take You Away

I want to take you away,
It's all I want to do,
I want us to feel free,
Will you come with me?
It doesn't matter where we go,
Up to the mountains,
Down to the sea,
Into to the city,
Out to the country,
Anywhere but alone,
I want to feel your heart beat,
Be your real life dream,
I want me to be me
You to be you, 
I'm not afraid,
Whatever it takes,
That's what we always say,
Now we seem content,
To let it be.

Day 1000 - A Thousand Days

I've thought of you for a thousand days,
Said I love you in a thousand ways,
My mind writes the words which elate,  
My heart stretches into a thousand shapes,
While I put it out there for all to see,
People still don't know us, like you and me,
How we wandered around hopelessly unknowing,
How we love so hard without showing,
They can't feel the pain we relive each and every day,
Feeling love in only the words we say,
It's not been a easy backseat ride,
Rather, more of a steep uphill climb,
They have not felt distance in our dreams,
Waking alone, to the sound of silent screams,
There's no warm morning hugs or kisses,
Only strong faith and oh so many wishes,
We fight hard through these trying times,
Wondering if we're missing moments of a lifetime.
One day the wind will carry you back to my arms,
Free us from the release of sad emotions harm,
We'll come out stronger on the other side,
And look back at what will have been a wild ride.

Day 993 - My Fix

 

What would I give,
To get my fix of you,
For one taste of your lips,
To feel your warmth,
Your delicate skin,
To have your eyes gazing deep in mine,
Tangled beneath the sheets,
A slave to your love,
Breathlessly at peace,
To have out hearts in sync?
There is nothing I wouldn't do.

Day 990 - Floating

Floating here,
The ups and down,
The waves they rise,
But I just stare.
No worries for me,
Skies are blue,
Trees are green,
Only fish in between.
I tilt my head,
To see below,
I reach out,
To catch a cloud,
But effortlessly,
It floats on by.
Reflections you see,
Are only to be seen,
They are not complete,
Nor do they show,
What really lies beneath.

Day 979 - What Lies Beneath

Those little eyes of yours,
Dark and soft like the earth,
I could sit and stare for hours,
Watching the way they change beneath.

Sometimes I feel they're out of reach,
Running through a distant land,
My world spins and crashes down,
I'm left standing all alone.

There are days I see hints of pain,
Screams raging like wild fire winds,
Then I watch you rise from the ashes,
Setting a course towards better days.

When kindness settles in,
I see you running with your best friend,
Through flower fields and green,
Throwing all worries into the wind.

Oh the days of sweetness and joy,
They are the ones I treasure most,
I see dancing trains and paper planes,
All deep inside a brightly shine.

Those eyes, they are my picture screen,
Telling me when to hold on a little tight,
Showing me how to just be free,
Guiding me down a path which has no end.

Day 968 - Night Life

I picture you there,
In that red sweater you wear,
Walking along cobblestone streets,
Laughing, enjoying the scene,
Mannequins staring under city lights,
Orange ash glowing in darkness of night,
A quick stop for a pint (or two),
Conversation amongst a friendly few,
You're pretty smile warming all hearts,
Perfect insults flying like darts,
You push the empty glasses aside,
Out the door with a crooked stride,
Walking back home to the railway square,
You're loving man waiting for you there,
Commence iPhone chats from the toilet seat,
Stories abound from the night's retreat,
You crawl awkwardly under the covers of bed,
Falling asleep, you steal my heart all over again.

Day 960 - Music

Music has always punctured my soul,
It tears me apart, then sews me back whole,
It's an intense "beat"ing I take everyday,
I wouldn't want it any other way.

Music brings on the joy and the pain,
Oh, the heartbreak, it makes my eyes rain,
It cuts and slices my emotions to bits,
With lyrical prose and poetic wits.


The bass pumps the blood in my veins,
The vocals stimulate the nerves in my brain,
Guitar solos drown out all of life's noise,
With chords dancing between fingers of poise.

Just one note can make the hair on my arm raise,
Make me drop to the ground in the deepest of praise,
It can make me jump up on to my feet,
Singing and swaying along with the beat.

Without music, I couldn't tell if I'm alive,
Experience feelings hidden deep down inside,
Songs have guided me on this walk through life,
Forged relationships and led me to my wife.





 

Day 957 - TwentyOne Days

Been twenty-one days since you've seen me here,
I'm the same ole man even when I disappear,
I've followed a crumbling path to no destiny,
I know in my soul it's not all I can be,
I yearn to break free from blinding routines,
Find the light which will lead me to my dreams,
I've settled, some people would politely say,
For a present I only hope will be better one day,
I do nothing to promote a better me inside or out,
Just let my mind whisper fears until they echo all doubt.

With that said, I am growing a better version of me,
Continually sowing the seeds I've planted between the weeds,
I am strong in my mind and faithful in my soul,
Maybe on the outside it just doesn't show,
I have an abundance of love and good will to give,
I have breath in my lungs and a reason to live,
I have a girl in my life who stands beside,
Her strength breeds a passion, makes me feel so alive,
She's rock solid ground where we stand together as one,
Doubt and fear? With her, I look around and find there is none.

Day 936 - Sad Song

This song says it all for me today:

Without you I'm just a "Sad Song" 

Day 935 - Joy Wins

Closed eyes,
Silents prayers,
Her shadow,
Dark room,
Long hair,
Warm skin,
Heart beat,
Tight grip,
Happy soul.

I wake,
Night sweat,
Hazy mind,
Deep breath,
All alone,
Tears flow,
Pain inside,
Faith heals,
Joy wins. 

Day 924 - Rainbow

I got me a rainbow

Holding tight in my hand,

I got me a rainbow,

Breathless right where I stand.

She's like the sun beams,
Shines bright in my eyes,
She's like the sun beams,
Warms me as our hearts collide. 

Sometimes she is thunder

Roaring loud through the trees, 

Sometimes she is thunder,

Dropping me to my knees.

Her mind is an ocean,
Ferociously pulling me in,
Her mind is the ocean,
Ebbing and flowing within.

Her heart is my world,
Beating only for me,
Her heart is my world,
Love is all that I see. 

I got me a rainbow

Holding tight in my hand,

I got me a rainbow,

Breathless right where I stand.

Day 908 - Alive

The unexpected turns,
The constant of the unknown,
That's the excitement of being alive.

Day 901 - Simple?

Our love is not as simple as it seems,
We have to trust this space between,

Hold me tight in your dreams,
And keep on rolling with me.

Day 896 - A Room

If our house is small,
Or even if it's just a room,
With four simple walls,
And nothing inside,
I'll still feel complete,
Staring in your eyes,
Breathing in your air,
Knowing love will pull us through.

Day 892 - Mistakes

Sometimes words get mixed,
Tossed like daggers as tears drip,
Hearts know nothing like this pain,
In darkness the mind screams insane,
He relives his callous mistakes,
Wishes to turn back time, do a re-take,
The excuses came over and over again,
As easy as typing and pressing send,
He couldn't just be a man and confess,
He spun the blame creating a tornatic mess,
All she wanted was to share between two,
Privacy for our ears, but he just didn't do,
He ignored the words of her requests,
Whether unintentional, it was disrespect,
Now he sits and ponders his ways,
Hating himself for pushing her away,
He truly only lives to see her smiling face,
The tracks of her tears he wishes he could erase,
He fears now the thought of losing her,
Over an ignorance which he wishes never occurred,
He apologizes for all his mistakes,
An imperfect man must now sit and wait.

Day 884 - No Stopping

Time and time again,
No matter the words
No what we do,
I will keep on striving,
Rising up high,
There's no stopping my love for you.

Day 882 - The Better Me

I've said it before,
I miss the me I am with you,
He's a different kind of guy,
No, not happy all the time,
Smiles just easier to come by.
He's excited to wake everyday,
To see your hair a mess,
To kiss you with awful tasting breath,
Watch you as the day begins.
And the nights, the nights are right,
Cooking meals with the music on, 
Looking like a real kitchen team,
Then it's off to cuddle so tight,
A warm blanket of joy surrounding us,
Up the next day to do it again.

Day 775 - Life's Movie

Memorable moments surround me,
Pictures and memories,
The movie of my life,
They bring about sensations,
Feelings which force emotions,
Laughs, tears, so many smiles,
They are undiluted,
They make me feel so alive,
 If only for a moment of time,
Come life's end,
This is the reel I will play,
Over and over again.

Day 774 - Beat

We can't control,
The way our heart's beat,
The silent rhythms,
Always out of tune,
Until you find the one.

Day 772 - Too Few

And they cried,
In each other's arms,
They cried,
Holding each other tight,
Wishing there was more time.

One week or two,
It's always too few,
Too few minutes,
Too few hours,
Clocks just ticking on by.

We make the most,
Bringing each other joy,
Laughing all day,
Loving all night,
Everything feeling so right.

Back whence we came,
Ocean's apart,
It's always the same,
Screens of our face,
Kissing in sounds.

No, it ain't easy,
We work it out,
Trusting in faith,
Counting the days,
Until our time becomes real.

Day 759 - Good Times Again

I'm having a good time again,
Side by side with my best friend.
The two of us are free now to be,
All that we see in our dreams.
I love that she hasn't changed much at all,
Just a little shorter in the way her hair falls.
She still giggles underneath the sheets,
Healing my soul, making me feel complete.
She still loves to bite upon my lips,
Drives me wild with the shake of her hips,
She's the complete package you see,
Gives me everything I never knew I'd need.
Love sure moves in mysterious ways,
I just wish it would allow for more than a week stay.

Day 758 - The Ride

On my way to see my love in Ireland and spent a day in New York City. Lots of sights and sounds to help get my creativity back on track...

The Ride

Second time riding the subway in NYC,

So many different sights to see,
There's people of all ages and race,

Hurrying around, getting the cold off their face,
There was the young man who introduced himself to dance,
In front of everyone, walking away with $5 in his pants,
A poor man on the bench who clearly had pissed himself,
Full of dirt and clearly of little wealth,

I sat down the other end, his smell in air,

As people would enter they'd smirk in disgust and fear,
He mostly sat quietly, eating his potato chips,

But in between it was outbursts of complete gibberish.
At times I would look over and he had passed out,
Alone on the train, without any apparent help.

I couldn't help thinking how he got to this place,
How his life had turned from innocent child to an unhappy face,

Maybe it was the booze or drugs he put inside,
Perhaps it was mental and he was letting it ride,
Either way I couldn't help feeling bad,
Wondering about the wild journey he's had. 

As I collected my thoughts, a beautiful moment came to be,
A women kindly offered water and food, unafraid of what others perceived, 

Was she an angel watching over this man?
Or just a good person who would always lend a hand?

Say 742 - Smile

Your smile brings me a happiness.
I just can't resist,
Letting my lips respond in turn,
Each and every morn.
I'm one lucky man,
To have you in reach of my hand,
To have you next to my side,
Going through life's wild ride.
One day we'll sit and reminisce,
All of the memories we miss,
But all I may remember of me,
Is the smile I always loved to see

Day 738 - I Pour Out My Heart

I pour out my heart,

To only one set of eyes,

The only one who needs to see.
I do it out of love,
A love full of passion,
Which allows words to flow easily.
My rock, she keeps me stable,
My soulmate, she is an angel,
My life, she is all I need.

Day 736 - Best I Can

Sometimes I feel like I leave things half done,
Sometimes I feel like I leave things half said,
I hope you know I am trying the best that I can,
To give you all I have to keep us going strong.

Day 733 - Winter

Today Nashville is covered in snow, so it is only fitting to pay tribute to that which allowed me a day off of work...

A wintery mix,
With a wind so brisk,
It chills you to the bone.

Lawns stained white,
A temporary delight,
For children of all size.

Your breath you will see,
In a silence you won't believe,
As you watch each flake hit the ground.

Tree limbs hang low,
From the weight of the snow,
Birds just look around food.

For me, I'm just thankful for heat,
Warm slippers on my feet,
And hot coco running in my veins.

Today I will stay inside,
Smiling real wide,
Thinking about me and you.

Day 731 - Unknown

Sitting, watching, waiting, 

For something unknown to me, 

Maybe a sign that shows me the way,

A light to guide me from going astray.

Something, anything, nothing,

Seems to get my mind through this fog, 

The thick noise of thoughts consumes, 

Leaving me lost and unable to see. 

Running, hiding, forgetting, 

Seems impossible at this point, 

I'll lay under my covers another night,

Hopefully dreaming of better days. 

Touching, holding, loving, 

Is all I have left in me to give, 

I want to lay it all upon you, 

Until my last breath calls me home. 

Day 723 - Smile

A smile is free to give,
Yours gives me breath to live.

Day 716 - No Words

Hello, from the other side of the world,
Where this guy is missing his girl.
I'm beat down with a cough and runny nose,
Attempting to dictate another loving prose.
Most times I can write down all my words,
Today, I'm just not sure what I'm looking for.
I want to say how much I miss seeing your face,
How much I hate not being in the same place.
I need you to know how pretty you are in every way,
How happy you make me with all the kind words you say.
I hope you understand that my emotions for you run deep,
As I sit here thinking of you, "Let It Be" is making me weep.
I really want to tell you to your face, "you are my life,"
And I can't wait to grow old with you as my wife.
If only I could get these thoughts down on here today,
You'd feel even more loved than just the words I say.

Day 715 - Passion

Passion breathes fire, 

And what can transpire,

Is often referred to as love.